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Thursday, May 24, 2012

the song has ended but the melody lingers on...

Ed passed away May 17th, 2012.  he was bleeding internally, his blood pressure was going very low, and he had a couple of seizures.  my chest hurts from the pain 

that is left from this episode in our lives.  I love Edward so much.   

Sunday, March 18, 2012

BBQ Tri Tip Sandwhich

yes, the vegetarian phase is done.  Ed craves the food that he used to eat and I told him that it was his choice to eat what he wanted to eat.  On Thursday he had spaghetti and meat balls and on Friday he had the now famous BBQ tri-tip sandwich at Sizzlers.  He actually looked and said he felt he had more energy on Saturday and he thinks that it was all the protein that he consummed.  He says that he plans to eat meat about once per week but does not want to do more than that.  I told him that I am still against eating animal and cannot cook meat.  the plan is to eat meat only when he eats out which is not too often.  I cook a lot at home these days. 

My granddaughter, Faith, is now getting ready to go on dyalisis because her kidney transplant is failing.  she was in the hospital last week and when she was released her kidlney levels were still pretty bad.  they are thinking that they'll do dyalisis at home.  this is more than a little sad. 

I am not one to be thinking why me.  but this past week has been one of those weeks and my whole chest hurts from all that is happening to my family.   I am feeling pretty low and lonely.  all i hear around me is sad news. 

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Airforce vs Tumor

so the last scan shows that the little spec that was too small to identify is now growing..but not for long!  The David Grant Medical Center at California's Travis Airforce Base is taking this tumor on and my money is on the US Airforce, what do you think?  am I right that the Airforce will win.  this tumor has no chance.

Ed goes in to have it eliminated later this month.  thankfully there are no "new" tumors just one that decided to grow and challange the airforce and the Rosado family.  but no no no, this is not going to keep us down. 

yes, there are still days of lots of activity - one of those days Ed got the van working again, he cleaned and moved a very big fish tank that we have and had not been cleaned since he got sick.  poor fish must've been shocked to be in clean water.  but most days he is still in pain from ascitis and problems with digestion.

there's a plan to put in a shunt to help with the ascitis because now he gets the fluid removed and it returns in less than three days.  doctors are talking about the TIPS procedure for him and we are hoping that it works. 

he has had a little bit more of negativism but I am trying to get him on the path of positive thinking and back to praying and communicating with God.  this really helps.  haven' been to church yet but we continue to watch Joel Osteen on Sundays which is a great motivater for us.

take care everyone.  if you need to email me please go ahead

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Goodbye Paul

Sue has been posting regularly on the Cancer Survivor Network about her and her husband's struggle with liver cancer.  Last week her husband Paul passed away.  He went very quickly after the doctor told them to go to Hospice and the nurses began coming to see him.  Don't misunderstand me, I am not saying he would've lived longer without hospice.  I am just considering at this moment that he was ready to go and he did. 

Allowing life and God to take control is also being strong.  Sue did more than she could possibly do to keep Paul alive and well.  But at the end we have no control of how long we are to live in this world.  May God keep Sue strong and keep Paul in his care.  Now Paul can watch and care for Sue from above.   

Saturday, January 21, 2012


So, in a few days it will be 2 years since "the day"
the day that everything changed for Ed and for me.  yes, two months turned to two years and here we are. 

We are not free yet.  there is still a lot of pain and a lot of pain medication.  Ed has pain in the pit of his stomach and the ascitis or retention of fluid is worse than ever.  Yet, we continue.  Some days Ed can't even get out of bed because of the pain and some days like today he gets up early and makes me breakfast:).  He then continues working around the house, asks me to take him to Sears and to Harbor Freight where his step gets a little lighter and happiness is painted on his being.  This is what makes me strong. This is what makes me happy. 

He has an appointment next Tuesday to get the fluid drained and other appointments with his liver practioner and his oncologist but what we look forward to is the appointment at Travis Med Center, David Grant - it ce ever they are so efficient.  He will go to Travis in March to get blood tests, a scan, and to meet with the doctor to see if tumors are still not detectable.  I need to find out more about the spleen.  the results say that there is something but it is so small that they can't identify it.  We will see.  and we will eat.  Travis has the best cafeteria of all the VAs adn we enjoy eating there mostly because you get so much food for very little money.

I hope that everyone enjoyed their holidays - I know that this coming year will be amazing.  We will travel, eat, and enjoy every minute of the year.  Keep a positive attitude no matter what happens I can handle it.  If this is the last year, last month, last day, last minute with Ed it will be the best I won't settle for anything less.
take care