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Sunday, January 22, 2012

Goodbye Paul

Sue has been posting regularly on the Cancer Survivor Network about her and her husband's struggle with liver cancer.  Last week her husband Paul passed away.  He went very quickly after the doctor told them to go to Hospice and the nurses began coming to see him.  Don't misunderstand me, I am not saying he would've lived longer without hospice.  I am just considering at this moment that he was ready to go and he did. 

Allowing life and God to take control is also being strong.  Sue did more than she could possibly do to keep Paul alive and well.  But at the end we have no control of how long we are to live in this world.  May God keep Sue strong and keep Paul in his care.  Now Paul can watch and care for Sue from above.   

Saturday, January 21, 2012


So, in a few days it will be 2 years since "the day"
the day that everything changed for Ed and for me.  yes, two months turned to two years and here we are. 

We are not free yet.  there is still a lot of pain and a lot of pain medication.  Ed has pain in the pit of his stomach and the ascitis or retention of fluid is worse than ever.  Yet, we continue.  Some days Ed can't even get out of bed because of the pain and some days like today he gets up early and makes me breakfast:).  He then continues working around the house, asks me to take him to Sears and to Harbor Freight where his step gets a little lighter and happiness is painted on his being.  This is what makes me strong. This is what makes me happy. 

He has an appointment next Tuesday to get the fluid drained and other appointments with his liver practioner and his oncologist but what we look forward to is the appointment at Travis Med Center, David Grant - it ce ever they are so efficient.  He will go to Travis in March to get blood tests, a scan, and to meet with the doctor to see if tumors are still not detectable.  I need to find out more about the spleen.  the results say that there is something but it is so small that they can't identify it.  We will see.  and we will eat.  Travis has the best cafeteria of all the VAs adn we enjoy eating there mostly because you get so much food for very little money.

I hope that everyone enjoyed their holidays - I know that this coming year will be amazing.  We will travel, eat, and enjoy every minute of the year.  Keep a positive attitude no matter what happens I can handle it.  If this is the last year, last month, last day, last minute with Ed it will be the best I won't settle for anything less.
take care