HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

So, in a few days it will be 2 years since "the day"
the day that everything changed for Ed and for me.  yes, two months turned to two years and here we are. 

We are not free yet.  there is still a lot of pain and a lot of pain medication.  Ed has pain in the pit of his stomach and the ascitis or retention of fluid is worse than ever.  Yet, we continue.  Some days Ed can't even get out of bed because of the pain and some days like today he gets up early and makes me breakfast:).  He then continues working around the house, asks me to take him to Sears and to Harbor Freight where his step gets a little lighter and happiness is painted on his being.  This is what makes me strong. This is what makes me happy. 

He has an appointment next Tuesday to get the fluid drained and other appointments with his liver practioner and his oncologist but what we look forward to is the appointment at Travis Med Center, David Grant - it ce ever they are so efficient.  He will go to Travis in March to get blood tests, a scan, and to meet with the doctor to see if tumors are still not detectable.  I need to find out more about the spleen.  the results say that there is something but it is so small that they can't identify it.  We will see.  and we will eat.  Travis has the best cafeteria of all the VAs adn we enjoy eating there mostly because you get so much food for very little money.

I hope that everyone enjoyed their holidays - I know that this coming year will be amazing.  We will travel, eat, and enjoy every minute of the year.  Keep a positive attitude no matter what happens I can handle it.  If this is the last year, last month, last day, last minute with Ed it will be the best I won't settle for anything less.
take care
maria