BBQ Tri Tip Sandwhich

yes, the vegetarian phase is done.  Ed craves the food that he used to eat and I told him that it was his choice to eat what he wanted to eat.  On Thursday he had spaghetti and meat balls and on Friday he had the now famous BBQ tri-tip sandwich at Sizzlers.  He actually looked and said he felt he had more energy on Saturday and he thinks that it was all the protein that he consummed.  He says that he plans to eat meat about once per week but does not want to do more than that.  I told him that I am still against eating animal and cannot cook meat.  the plan is to eat meat only when he eats out which is not too often.  I cook a lot at home these days. 

My granddaughter, Faith, is now getting ready to go on dyalisis because her kidney transplant is failing.  she was in the hospital last week and when she was released her kidlney levels were still pretty bad.  they are thinking that they'll do dyalisis at home.  this is more than a little sad. 

I am not one to be thinking why me.  but this past week has been one of those weeks and my whole chest hurts from all that is happening to my family.   I am feeling pretty low and lonely.  all i hear around me is sad news.